Kelly Clarkson is a Grammy winner and proud mother — among many other accolades — but when she was first rising to stardom, she was told to fit a mold. The American Idol alum revealed to Attitude that she was pressured to lose weight at the height of her career.
“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life,” Kelly admitted. “But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense. It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time.”
The singer, whose eighth studio album, Meaning of Life, drops on Friday, October 27, added that it wasn’t until 2007 album, My December, that she stood up for herself and gained back control.
“There’s a song on My December called ‘Sober.’ There’s this line ‘picked the weeds but kept the flowers’ and I just live my life by that because you are who you surround yourself with,” Kelly concluded. “I was around some really negative people, and I got out of it because I had a lot of great people there too. It was a case of turning around, facing them and walking toward the light.”